我是谁 之三

【原文】
Ego arises when your sense of Beingness, of "I Am," which is formless consciousness, gets mixed up with form. This is the meaning of identification. This is forgetfulness of Being, the primary error, the illusion of absolute separateness that turns reality into a nightmare.

Ego is always identification with form, seeking yourself and thereby losing yourself in some form. Forms are not just material objects and physical bodies. More fundamental than the external forms —— things and bodies——are the thought forms that continuously arise in the field of consciousness.

【译文】
自我的出现，来自于人对存在或者“我存在”这些无形之物的觉知与具体的形态的混淆。自我是认同感，也是对存在的遗忘。这些导致事物是绝对分离的幻觉。这个致命的错误，将现实弄得一塌糊涂。

自我总是寻求与各种具体形态的认同，这种寻找必将导致你强调某些形态，却忽视其他一些。形态并非仅是物质。比那些外在的形态——也即各种事物——更基本的，是以思维形式存在的形态。他们在意识中不停闪现。

【心得】
如果有人对你说，想法是物体，你能接受么?我想我能。我们不能“看见”想法，也无法听到，但是当它出现时，你知道。

我们不知道想法是怎么出现的，但是它总是不停的冒出来——尤其是在你无所事事的时候。如果你能接受思维是事物，是形态，就可以了。

这一段除了这个，没有将别的额外意思。

我是谁 之二

【原文】
Equating the physical sense-perceived body with "I", the body that is destined to grow old, wither, and die, always leads to suffering sooner or later. To refrain from identifying with body doesn't mean that you neglect, despise, or no longer care for it. If it is strong, beautiful, or vigorous, you can enjoy and appreciate those attributes——while they last. You can also improve the body's condition through right nutrition and exercise. If you don't equate the body with who you are, when beauty fades, vigor diminishes or the body becomes incapacitated, this will not affect your sense of worth or identity in any way. In fact, as the body begins to weaken, the formless dimension, the light of consciousness, can shine more easily through the fading form.

【译文】
将感觉/知觉到的肉身等同於“我”，迟早会给人打来痛苦。肉身注定会衰老，枯萎，凋零。不将肉身当作我，并非是教你忽视，鄙视乃至于不再关心身体。若有强壮身体，充沛精力或俊美面容，我们不但该趁着它们逝去之前尽情享受并感激它们，更应加强营养与锻炼以增强与改善它们。只是，如果我们不将身体与“我”等同起来，就不会在容颜老去，精力减退，身体衰弱时，受到它们对个人的价值的判断和身份认同的影响。实际上，当身体开始衰老时，那不依赖于形体的意识之光便能更容易穿透正在腐朽逝去的形态，散发出耀眼的光彩。

【心得】
《我是谁 之一》中提到了，“我是谁”这个问题的答案，并不能“以我是某某”这样的形式来回答。这里强调的是，我不是我的身体。身体这一物质形态，注定了将在世间承受苦痛。它将在某些时刻强大无比，充满活力，也将会衰老，变弱，最终消失。虽然”我“最终也会伴随身体消失，但身体并不能等同与“我”。 “我”完全可以不受身体痛苦的限制，自由的探索与生活。

我是谁 之一

【原文】

The ultimate truth of who you are is not I am this or I am that, but I AM.

【译文】

我是谁？
这个问题的终极答案，不是我是这个我是那个，而是我存在。

【心得】

我们几乎每天都在回答“我是谁”这个问题，尤其是在遇到新朋友的做自我介绍时。而答案，无非是，我是清阳，我是学生，我是心理学专业的学生，我是中国人，我是留学生，我跑步，我是父母的儿子，母亲的哥哥，女友的男友... 仔细想想，这些无非是在给自己贴一个标签了事。这些标签无非是为了简化自己，以图让别人（或别人的思维）认识其我来更加容易些。

这些答案都没有错，但没有一个是完全描述自己的。它们只能算部分真实，因为它们有可能是变化的。比如，在未来的某些时候，我可以不再是学生，也可能不再搞心理学，也可能成为其他国家的公民，也会从男友变成丈夫... 这些变动不居的标签，只适合某一时间和空间.

如果要用高度概括的话来涵盖所有的事实，除了这一句“我存在”更合适的了。这句话看似没有任何具体信息，其实却传达了一个非常重要的观点：我是什么并非十分重要，而是在这一刻，我存在着，作为学生，跑者，男性，儿子，哥哥，男友...等等这一切存在着。这才是根本，才是最真实也最重要的。

[健康] Oct. 2nd, Nuci’s SPACE 5k

I have to say Oct. 2nd was a nice day, sunny and calm. It was a little bit chilly but not bad at all. Not bad for a morning run. Actually, Freya did her 12 miles long run and I participated The 7th Annual S.P.A.C.E. Race 5K.

It was my second 5K race this year. The first one was the Athens Twilight 5K in April. It took me 20:04 to finish the 5K last time. This time I wanted something under 20 to set a new PR.

Freya’s long run ended at the start of my 5K. We planed her long run route the night before so she could finish her training and meet me at the start of the 5K to cheer for me. And of course, she took some photos. This is me before the race.

My labmates John and Lauren also ran the race. Cindy participated as a volunteer. Actually it was Cindy who informed us about the Nuci’s SPACE run.

The race started in some traditional way which I had no idea what it was. I just started running when I sensed others were moving. Yes, I was at the front line.

The whole run was OK. I did not feel very well. It was like lack of energy. I had the feeling that I wanted to go faster but I couldn’t because there was no fuel in the tank. Maybe I was too excited, I don’t know. All that I could do was to keep my pace, and keep going. that’s it…

This is me towards the finish. Freya took this photo and then the battery of the camera died. There was no video when I was passing the finish this time. We planned it, but did not check the battery.

I finished the third overall. The final results were not posted yet as of now, but I finished under 20 minutes for sure. I am happy with the result.

After the race, a mild pancreatitis episode attacked me. I had to take pain medicine and stay in bed. The pain lasted about 8 hours. I don’t think the race is the cause of the attack. It probably would happen no matter what. It might have affected my performance. Yeah, I believe I could have done better.

Anyway, what has been done has been done. Training will continue. Looking forward to my next race, the Athens Half Marathon!

update: I found more photos here.

当下的力量 之十三

【原文】

Through the present moment, you have access to the power of life itself, that which has traditionally been called "God". As soon as you turn away from it, God ceases to be a reality in your life, and all you are left with is the mental concept of God, which some people believe in and others deny. Even belief in God is only a poor substitute for the living reality of God manifesting every moment of your life.

【译文】

透过当下，你可以体验到生活自身的力量。传统上，这种力量被称为上帝。你一旦偏离当下，上帝便从你的生活中抽身而去，只留下一个上帝的概念。 变成了概念，便有人相信有人不信。这种情况下，即便是信仰上帝，也无法取代上帝真的无时不在。

【心得】

是啊，如果你不在当下接触生活自身的力量，那么信它存在有如何呢。

信仰上帝存在不如使上帝存在。使上帝存在，只需着眼当下，也只有这样错，才是唯一的方式。

这些天，一直接受一种信息，那就是生活不是别的，而是你的创造。无论你做什么，你都在创造自己的生活。这种创造只发生在当下。无论你着眼于过去，还是放眼于未来，一切的改变都是在现在做出的。活在当下是有道理的，不是么？因为对过去的修正或者对未来的建设，都是透过现在发生的。将精力放在当下吧，从当下开始，创造人生。

当下的力量 之十二

【原文】

Your primary purpose is to enable consciousness to flow into what you do. The secondary purpose is whatever you want to achieve through the doing. Whereas the notion of purpose before was always associated with future, there is now a deeper purpose that can only be found in the present, through the denial of time.

Your secondary or outer purpose lies within the dimension of time, while your main purpose is inseparable from the Now and therefore requires the negation of time. How are they reconciled? By realizing that your entire life journey ultimately consists of the step your are taking at this moment. There is always only this one step, and you give it your fullest attention. This doesn't mean you don't know where you are going; it just means this step is primary, the destination secondary. And what you encounter at your destination once you get there depends on the quality of this one step. Another way of putting it: What the future holds for you depends on your state of consciousness now.

【译文】

人生的首要目标便是唤醒意识，使之关注行动。而行动所收获的，无论它是什么，相比之下都是次要的。以前，目标这一概念总是与未来相联系的，但现在我们知道更深层次的目标只能通过否定时间，在当下获得。

次要目标或外部目标的存在依赖于时间。而主要目标则与当下密不可分，且否定时间。这二者如何统一？这需要意识到我们的生命旅程乃是由当下迈出的每一步所构成的。当下只有这一小步，需要你对它全神贯注。 这不是说你不需要了解前进的方向，只是强调迈出当前这一步的重要性，以及终点的相对次要。在生命的终点你将遇到什么取决于当前这一步如何迈出。
换句话说：你当前的意识状态决定你的未来。

【心得】

有很多人该听过拖延症这个词（如果没听说过，去Google一下或者看一下维基百科上的词条：英文， 中文)，是指人做事不拖到最后一刻不动手。在最后一刻到来之前，拖延症患者会做各种无关的事情来消磨时间。无论造成这样的病症的原因是什么，所有的拖延者都有着相同的特点：对自己当下的行为视而不见，不加引导，任凭自己在当下如失去灵魂般的做与自己需要完成的事情相差十万八千里的闲白儿。

这个过程中，个体的意识不在当下。整个人做的事情无非是让自己麻痹，不去因对未来的失败的恐惧和担忧或者对过去的失误而懊悔和抱怨。然而，恐惧与失误却一刻不会离开他们，因为他们的意识一刻也没有离开过去和未来。

解决这个问题的方法只有一个，把意识拉回到当下。在当下，不存在失败或失误，也没有担忧和懊悔存在的空间。在当下，只有一个问题：怎样行动。以行动回答这个问题，所有的问题就解决了。
把意识置于当下，是人生的首要目标。开始正确的行动，是第二位的。置于行动的结果，在我看来应该是第三位的了。

要注意到，无论意识是否是在关注当下，减轻拖延带来的焦虑的方法，都是行动。没有意识的盲目行动只是从焦虑中逃避，行为的结果常常是带来更严重的压力；有意识引导的正确行动不但减轻焦虑，更可以从根本上消除焦虑。

因此要消除拖延，就必须活在当下。

当然活在当下并不只是为了消除拖延。将意识拉回当下，关注行为，可以消除很多本不该有的压力，可以引导人们发现生活之美，之幸福。清楚了这一点，就掌握了幸福生活的钥匙。接下来，请行动吧。